Wednesday, May 14, 2008

I am 35 years old for chrissakes...

... And I still cannot even remotely get my shit together.

My car got towed today. Second time in less than a year. For parking tickets, which arose because I have not renewed the registration on my car. Since it ran out... in January. Part of the reason I've not done this is that first I have to change my driver's license, which still has our old address on it. Instead of the address of the apartment I've been living in for TWO YEARS NOW.

I know there are pregnant homeless crack whores out there who have their shit less together than I do. Surely. But Fucking A.

And I need to lose 30 pounds. Stupid, but true.

Grrr. Argh.

22 Comments:

Blogger mamacita said...

You're 35 years old, for chrissakes -- the prime of your life. You shouldn't spend your days worried about banal details like car registration. You're out there living life instead.

BTW, I have about 80 pounds to lose (15 down, though). You remember what it's like when only-slightly-overweight people complain, right? You think, "girl, please. I could show you a fat ass."

Don't sweat the details, kid.

4:24 PM  
Blogger da butcher said...

god do i hear you on the crack whore!

7:00 PM  
Blogger sK said...

i am so with you, although i'm a year younger and only 10 lbs to lose. i wonder when i get the life where i can stop living in a basement apartment, afford a house, a wedding and a kid. not necessarily in that order, but still. i wanted to let you know that i just watched the JC Chefography (on my tivo for months) the other day and thought of you. you rock!

6:17 AM  
Blogger Little Red said...

Yeah. I got myself some parking tickets that made me re-evaluate my life choices last fall. One for the same thing, failure to deal with my registration (thank you exhusband for forwarding that piece of mail...) and a second for failure to move my cars for several days on end. But I had the sweet space, the one RIGHT outside the front door of my building. WHY would anyone give that up voluntarily?

Of course, this is Juneau. So the difference between the SWEET spot and the average ones is about 50 feet.

I'm such a looser. I'm glad I am not the only one who feels that way.

1:14 PM  
Blogger Jenn23 said...

I know people with less of a life and who are...well more mature than your 35 and they are a mess. I think that it's the human condition. That we never really have anything together, but some are better at pretending than others. No matter how good the picture looks there is a flaw somewhere, it's just depends on the way the artist chooses to cover it up!

12:57 AM  
Blogger JULES said...

I'll be 35 this summer, my name is also Julie (as half of our generation. Anyway here in Quebec) and I need to lose at least 50 lbs... oh! what else? I havent't read your book yet!!

6:36 PM  
Blogger rachel said...

Girl, I am in a similar situation! I just moved (between states) and haven't got my new license OR my car registered. My plates are also expired and you have reminded me to kick it in gear and get it taken care of, or else I will end up with a towed car like you.

Oh, I'm also 35 and I have about 60 pounds to lose.

5:36 PM  
Blogger Big Picture Guy said...

It's part of the charmingly disorganized nature of brilliant people. It's not like your taxes are behind or anything serious (don't ask me why I said that).

11:00 AM  
Blogger herb said...

I'm turning 35 in Sept!I'm freaking out,I drink to much,have no job,or car,or love,other than my dog,I'm have gray hair,chain smoke,and thinking of getting out to some far away place,to outrun my broken heart from my ex,of 11 yrs.And the weather here in Seattle
WA,isn't raining,but i'm have a gut,and I feel like a women,nothing fits!lol
Will,i find love?i want kids
should I leave,and start over again? after starting over three years ago with a key chain!?yuk
What the heck to do?
Any Good idea's,
Oceanliving

5:06 AM  
Blogger Vonda said...

I turn 35 next week and I need to lose a wopping 100 lbs before I have lots of health problems. Plus, I still live with parents, don't have many friends or a family of my own. So you needn't worry about your life just look at mine.

7:15 AM  
Blogger freewurd said...

I turned 35 today! It is not that bad. It is not old. I realized we go through life with unecessary worry. Life can begin today if you want it...let go of dead (mental) weight...stop fretting about nonsense....good fortune to fellow 35 y. olds...this moment is for you.......

8:00 PM  
Blogger Vinagrette said...

Hey this is an old post I know. But how are you doing 2 years later?

I turn 35 in Jaunary of '10. Freaking out myself. But trying to keep it all real for the next 35 years. . .

6:52 PM  
Blogger Vinagrette said...

Oh wait--this was just a year ago. Well, hope you're doing good.

6:53 PM  
Blogger Nicole~ said...

What I feel is missing in your fan base is a distinct lack of Joss Whedon appreciation. Grrr Argh. C'mon people! I'm a late comer as far as being a Julie Powell fan. Very late. Actually just saw the movie this past weekend, immediately went to the library to check out your book and read it in 2 days. Now have spent the last 4 days reading this blog. Love your attitude, love your style. You are very much a "this is who I am and I make no apologies for it" woman. Not many people can say that and I think it's wonderful.

8:17 AM  
Blogger Vinagrette said...

Hey I forgot I wrote here. And I forgot I just turned 35. Couldn't tell the difference, really.
Nicole, you're right--Julie just lets it "all hang out", in all her beautiful disarray. Very human, and quite an inspiration.
Ok, so now I have to write at least one entry in my blog.

8:22 AM  
Blogger Raymond said...

I just made 35 in May. i promise it feels like I jump straight into 45. My knees hurt, foot aches after sitting down then getting up, and I have a bad attitude for anyone under 21! I work out at least twice aweek when im not lying about working out!!(HINT HINT)! O Im a man who's lining is know starting to fade!!!

11:23 AM  
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4:50 AM  
Blogger fleur said...

o.k well if I should tell the truth about my life at 35 it would be that it has got no better than when it was at 20. I don't worry so much about outward displays of wealth as much as I do about the dimples, the wrinkles and the greatest sex that I have never had. Please explain!!!!!! but, for the most part I am working on it. Sauna tomorrow, Kama Sutras in the mail and the botox is on my to do list.

12:56 AM  
Blogger clay_utah said...

I couldnt understand more. I am 35 as of a few months ago and I have no real career and have been struggling with a pill addiction since I was 19. I am clean, mother to children and a wife, but I still feel like such a loser because I wasted all my time money and intelligence on drugs that now that I am clean and have control over my weight and family I have no career to speak of. My husband works, and we have a great apartment, but my kids deserve a home and I cant give them one. I feel like such a loser, plus I am with you on the ticket. I have a speeding ticket from last year still unpaid. My kids are great and I love my husband (those of you talking about never having great sex, that comes once you really love someone and can be uninhibited with them I promise) but we fight too much because we both feel bad about our past bad choices. I feel so bad all the time. Antidepressants dont touch it and I am doing great at staying away from painkillers but it feels like they are still haunting me because life is never going to be what it could have been because of them. I had no idea what I was getting into at the start (your doc gives them out like candy and they are legal so I had no clue what I was getting into) and now I feel like I am just screwed. No money to go back to school or anything. I sacrifice everything for my family and my kids have more than I did as far as clothes and toys, but no nice home and no secure career for mom. I feel so bad about it. Not sure how to fix it. Anyway I feel your pain. 35 feels too late to change.

1:55 PM  
Blogger Meeka Brown said...

Hi I'm 35 and although things are much better than they were a couple years ago, I still find myself so confused. It's really mind blowing because I've always known what I wanted...the one thing I am sure of is I want to sing...since that's not paying right now I find myself needing to find something else too....I have so many interests that its like this should not be this hard! I have trouble making some decisions or even capturing a thought sometimes...I just wish I could find a direction and go that way, along with the music, that's not ever going anywhere...any advice or ideas is greatly appreciated...

1:58 PM  
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3:01 AM  
Blogger Ashley said...

Don't fret- I am also a fellow 35 year old loser. I don't know if I am venting, making you feel better, or none of the above. I am from North America living in the Mediterranean, working at a dead end job (English teaching). I am working in Europe semi-illegally as I had been paying the wrong tax category and I have thousands in debt owed to the government here. The government will not allow me to pay reasonable monthly payments (they want 80% of my current salary), so I am going as a freelance from academy to academy hoping they will not find out about my debt to the government.

Now let's add the fact that I owe my family over 300,000 dollars for my education that I never completed. I have no university degree. As well, I am currently living with my boyfriend of many years who has little interest in me. He keeps on pressuring me to accept that cheating is ok, and if he wants me to keep him happy, I have to allow him to participate in orgies. Of course, I have no interest in this type of relationship. I somehow wonder if I would still be with him if it was not for the fact that he pays for a lot of our bills and rent. He tells me at least once a week that I ruined his life.

Whenever we are in an argument about money he always rubs in my face that he could be with someone who is more financially off like him....like a doctor or a lawyer. He is obviously not the traditional gentleman (actually I do not care so much), but everything in his mind has to be 50/50. Does not exactly work with my 1000 dollar a month salary.

Now let us add the fact that I cannot get rid of these extra 30 pounds, and my once "model like looks" are now fading into smile lines and crows feet. I do not have the money like I used to- I would be able to get eyelash extensions, cool clothes, and fancy skin treatments. My looks are now fading into a dismal abyss.

In this country that I live in, I have no friends. Just some work contacts, but no friends. My only friends are my pets and as great as it is, it is also extremely pathetic.

No job security, broke, in a toxic relationship, no friendships, in debt with the world, overweight with fading looks, and just getting by barely everyday.

Meanwhile, everyone else in my friends and family back home are having children, getting married, buying homes, and they think I am on the brink of doing all of that....far from the truth.

Your life ain't so bad...just look at mine ;)

8:45 AM  

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